Time.

Time. It's the one thing we don't have enough of...and at the same time I'm convinced that if we were given more we would once again find ourselves in the same scenario. A close friend of mine was talking to her counselor one day and was asked to list her priorities out on a piece of paper and then on another sheet she was asked to list a typical day...what she found was that the two didn't match. It's not that we don't have enough time it's that we don't use it for what we intend. 

Over the last 6 months I found myself constantly thinking of ideas for my blog and wanting to share them on here...but I couldn't find the "time". I started a new job and with that my days were pretty booked seeing that I was taking care of a 2 year old and a 2 month old. Yikes! I found myself often wondering, "How do mom bloggers do this so well!?!" But I guess they don't have someone watching over them everyday. :) The children I kept were extremely sweet and I loved my time with them but somehow...be it emotionally or physically...it zapped my creative time. By the time I would get home I was making dinner...going to community group...snuggling with Whit on the couch (aww..) and it was the last thing I wanted to do. But I missed it! Not to mention that almost every week or so Whit would say..."I miss your blog...will you please post something." And I would say " I know I know...I will...don't pressure me! ;)"

When thinking about the new year (2011..it has a ring doesn't it!?) I don't want to be someone that desires something and it ends there...I want to fulfill them. I want my priorities list to match up with my typical day list. I want to be true to who I am. All this to say..."I'm back!" I really desire to carve time out of my life to be able to share myself creatively and share the ideas and thoughts that come into my head throughout the day. I won't be perfect at it I can guarantee you that...and I'm not going to try to be (that's part of whole living...right!?)...I'm just going to give myself the space to create and see what happens. And that feels good.